As I sit Here

[Gelmir_of_the_crows]

I sit and wonder why
why the trying
why the lying
Better yet
why do you think I'll fall again

I sit and wonder why
Why should I hope
every time your near
That when you leave
You'll still want me here

I sit and wonder why
Why the storms keep going
Though you say you hate them so
Why my heart still holds on
Though you traded it for a small gesture

I sit and wonder why

Should I hope in what feels like a lie

Sit atop some forgotten faith

Maybe it's real
Maybe it's there
Maybe.....but why


So I sit and wonder .... why